a story of my friend..

Today, i'm not going anywhere.. just staying at my room doing some work.. as usual, i will open facebook then read and response all my friend posted. suddenly i conscious a note of my friend. she write something like a letter for her ex-boyfriend. hmmmm.. after reading her note, i'm glad she's okay now.. i ask her permission to post her note in my blog... my friend, i'm proud of you.

Dear Ex (wherever you are...),

How are you?

It's been a long time since we last saw each other. I remember that day very vividly, because it was my 22nd birthday. I was in the town with my parents, and I saw you drove by in that black Wira. You saw me too. Then you called me in my cellphone, I was at a shop next to Faho waiting for my mum to buy some chicken for dinner. In our last conversation, you sounded bad...in fact, I knew you're trying so hard to hold back your tears as you told me that you're getting married. I already knew that, it was your mistake. A mistake I've been trying to help you avoid...I've told you before, over a million times, but you wouldn't listen. You wouldn't listen to anyone not even to your mother. I felt sorry for her. She was such a nice lady the first time I met her. Back to our last conversation...I didn't get to say anything to you because you hung up, suddenly, but I knew you're crying. Crying alone in that black car. One thing I must admit, I had tears in my eyes too that day. Not because I loved you, but because I felt sorry for you. That day, you were scared and helpless. That's why you called me. It was typical you, when you get into trouble you confided in me. I became a shoulder for you to cry on, a pillar for you to lean on and a heavy duty rope for you to hang on to. But as soon as everything went well with you, I was forgotten for months until the next trouble came knocking on you door.

Dear Ex,

Months earlier, prior to your unfortunate 'tragedy', you called me asking for reconciliation. You said you wanted more from me. Exactly, what 'more' you wanted from me? Because I expected more from you too. I expected more respect, more love, more care, more everything...But you didn't understand. It was always all about you. Just you, but you forgot that this world does not only revolve around you. You've been very selfish so I said 'NO' to you about you and me getting back together. We weren't meant to be together, we never were. One of my bestfriends had been telling me the same thing, but I never listened. I nearly dug my own grave. You were so hard to resist. I succumed to you stupid lies and broken promises which were attached along with your good looks and irresistably sexy eyes. YES, I still find your eyes sexy. But the day I said 'NO' to you was a winning moment for me. I've had enough.

And yea, I got your wedding invitation. But I didn't go. I just couldn't find any logic reasons of my attending to your wedding. And you shouldn't have invited me too. You're my history, my past and you're no longer a part of me. I didn't even want to see you, not because I hated you (I never hold grudges against you or anyone else) but because I refused to be reminded of how foolish I was when I was still your so-called 'GF'. Frankly speaking, I was never your girlfriend, I never felt special with you. I was more of 'just a friend' to you and I, myself, couldn't figure out what exactly was your role in my life. You were such a douchebag and you always will be. Plus, I thought I loved you but I was just obsessed endlessly with you. I worshipped you to death.

Dear Ex,

Now I'm so much happier being on my own. Looking back, I realized I've wasted and missed so many things and I regretted that very deeply. I got so carried away with you and your false hope. When everything was done, you left me badly wounded, like a roadkill waiting to drew its' last breath in the scorching heat in the middle of a highway. God knows how strong I was to put on a happy face towards my family and friends when deep inside, I was truly heart-broken. I picked up the pieces, licked my own wound and eventually, I was cured. Ironically, I found that journey very inspiring. I loved how it transformed me into a wiser and better person. Thanks to you but now I'm free to pursue my dreams. Trust me, I have lots of dreams. Obviously, that is one thing you or anyone else could never take away from me.

Hey big daddy, I hope you have a nice and comfy life with your new family. And if you still thought that I will always love you, well, I HAVE MOVED ON!!! Besides, life is too short to be wasted on grieving over you. I'm no longer the person or the girl you used to know. I'm more beautiful than ever, extra stronger and smarter.

Yours truly,

ME

jln2 cari makan

yesterday, 26 feb 2010, i went to wangsa maju.. my friend, sam gonna "belanja" me makan mee kolo KL.. hahaha.. i remember my cousin, trying to find a kolo me all around the KL.. pity her, she didn't find the correct one.. nama ja kolo me, but totally different the taste n its look.

and here, the pict i put together- mee kolo!!! mee ja ada lain sikit. hand made punya la mee tu..

the taste is the same. nyum2x.. thanks to sam.

Hello mummy..

Suddenly, I miss someone.. she is my friend, my love n sometimes became my enemy.. I still remember when I was small she love to have a talk with me.. even gossip.. kecik2 dah terdedah dengan gossip nie.. Sometimes she told me a story how did my father trying to tackle her. So sweet.. but sometimes I’m became fed up when she talk about something I don’t like. She became my enemy when she scold me, beat me and pinch me. That’s because of my mistake la. For the truth, I do cry a lot. Until now..and she’s the one on the top ranking who’s always make me cry. ( I’m a “congek” person.. very sensitive one). When she getting mad, uuuiissshhh… every words came out from her mouth was very poisonous.
Now, I’m already became a big girl. She never beat me anymore.. hehehe.. of course la.. But still, she kept on nagging if she doesn’t like anything I do. Things she doesn’t like:
1. When I wake up late. (bukan pergi sekolah pun)
2. My room was messy.
3. When my dress was too sexy for her.. (short pants, mini skirts.. allowed in the house only)
4. I never cook.. (boleh dihitung berapa kali jak setahun)
5. My boyfriend
6. When I’m became lazy.
7. Forget doing thing that she told me to do.
And so on…. Entah apa gik.
There’s one time we do have a big fight.. mulut jakla.. after that, I really do regret for what I did.. I did make she cry. (me? of course la nangis juga). Anyway, air dicincang takkan putus kan.. sekejap je.
Sorry for everything.. I do love u and forever it will be.. mmuuaahh!!

I found this photo!!!

hehehe.... i love to see other people photos.. even if they not my friend, i will trying my luck to open theirs album. hehehe.. if they didn't setting it for privacy, then people like me can scroll down and see all their photos.. yeahhh!!! dats me..

then one day, i found this photos.. a photo dat hv been upload by my friend's friend... dahhhh!! i recognize some of the people n there was us (THE SEVEN's SUN-sebut soon ahh) at the top of the photo. yahhhhh!! ssooooo, kebetulan.. the owner of diz photo comment something dat tickle my heart. he write "some of the girl back there trying to get into the photo".. is it? aiiii.. dats was me, tgh dating wif my ex.. (i think dat was my 1st date - yuhuuu... its long time ago) n my bodyguard (my best frens) sitting behind us pretending to be my guard. hahaha!! no la.. kebetulan we lepaking there (ada football match dat day) n i saw him, so he sat together la wif us. n i taking diz chance for dating him la.. hehehehe..

hmmm.. when i look at this photos, its look like they r bending to the right.. mcm mau masuk gambar jak.. n me, looking back to them, maybe talking or what so ever.. hehehe.. so, my friends, try to remember, what r u doing? is it trying to "kaco-kaco" us or memang mau masuk dlm gambar.

p/s the owner of this photo was Orbeno. oredi add to my fren list n adalah aku text dia pasal benda nie. i've told him dat u all tgh kaco me... i'm wearing blue t-shirt..

FRIENDS.....

I have many type of friends.. macam2 perangai.. kadang2 ada kwn yang jangan dirapati sangat. I’m afraid I will hurt her feeling since she is very2 sensitive person, which I mean she would thinking whatever people were not.. for example, if someone doesn't smile at her, she might think she/he doesn't like him, or she look weird to dat person.. aiya.. susahla mcm nie.. me myself hv to be very carefull if I’m beside her.. the way I talk also hv to control.. there’s one time she doesn’t talk to me, n at dat time i trying to “korek” my memory so hard dat I could remember what thing dat I hv done wrong.. so, for the conclusion, juz ignore her. She cannot be a good friend of mine.. but still she can be my frens.. anyway, not all people are the same.. think rational..
Kwn biasa2? Sangat banyak.. one things dat I owez regret is I do forget my friends name… my old schoolmate, roommate n classmate too.. saya ni jahat kah? Sorry.. really tak sengaja.. its like I’m having an eraser in my head…. Adeh heh.. really sorry k..
My best friend??!!! Yes!!!! I do have. Florina, Zian, Emmy, Nanie, Anie & caca… but now, thing r not the same again.. everyone has their own responsible n bz with their new life.. no more chit chatting, pillow talk, lepaking.. but there still who stay behind.. those who still single like me (not married), hehehehe… florina!!!!! Mmmuuuuaaahhh!!! Love u.. hehehe..
Reunion? I do like it so much… we can meet old classmate.. schoolmate..talking2.. laughing together… even with people who had a crush with me.. anyway, its all a long story.. so, not hurt feeling.. hehehe.. (dats pict was taken when we hvg reunion -ex smt sejingkat)
There’s one good thing about me is dat I’m a flexible person.. I can join or adapt into different world. Dats why I got a lot of friend.. I hv a nerd fren, a sensitive fren, annoying frens, a good frens, a wild fren n so on.. dat becoz I can change myself into their world.. dats not mean I hv many personalities.. its juz me, can adapt to their world..
if there’s someone doesn’t like us juz let it be.. but don’t hate him/her.. we can’t make everyone like u right??? Hehehehe…

testing2x...

testing2x...


suddenly aku cuba mau berjinak-jinak pakai blog ni...... bolehka.. hahaha.. cerita apa je yang aku lihat, yang aku alami.. barulah masa lapang aku digunakan sepenuhnya..





1st of all,


diz is me

a girl from Serian, Sarawak.. pure bidayuh.. no mixing blood (coz sometime people like to ask me "r u chinese?"). i'm a kampung girl, which i proud of it.

i love to hear any story from friends and almost all of it is about life.. hmmm...

all the story dat i'm going to post later maybe some of it i'm take it from my friends, thing happen dat around me n maybe from myself.. so, tunggu n lihat la.. hehehe...